A usual when it comes to tag..always my favourite game..(recentlyla)..thanx to k.lina...the person who is very the rajin to tag me...ahahaha...As always i'm not busy...just waiting for ami....plotting her project...huhu yer k.lina still tk abis lg..thesis dier..kene compile plak wat hardcover...Its ok kot..ader nmpk bayang2 dier nk lepas tuh:P... 3. Why do you like this pic?

speechless...i wish i could help you...but the truth is i cant....:(

I'm not sure whether this is tagged game or not..but i've got this from my sister through sms..so i guess kind of kool if i post it here..and anybody..pls answer it yeah:)..its gonna be fun:D

I've been tagged:)..







Name: ninie

Sisters: 1

Brothers: 1

Shoe size: 6  and 7

Height: 163cm

Where do you live: Tronoh Perak 

Have you ever been on a plane: yesJ. 

Swam in the ocean: erm let me recall..aha yes a week after I quit my job..went for short a vacation to pangkor with amiJ  

Fallen asleep at school: yeah of course
Broken someone’s heart: ahahahaa yeah so so many time as much as others broke my heart hmm

Fell off your chair: ada kot:P..


Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call:hmm ade…end up the person never call..isk

Saved e-mails: yup..from a special person..


What is your room like: mcm tongkang pecah:D
What’s right beside you:erm let me see..my mouse..handphone..my colorsplash:P..

What is the last thing you ate: last night…nasi berlaukkan ayam masak merah:D
Chicken pox: when i was  ten years old.. 

Sore throat: hah ader kadang2


Stitches: yeah ada…my ankle

Broken nose: never

Do you believe in love at first sight: ermm…50% yes 50% nope..
Like picnics: yeah very much

Who was/were…The last person you danced with: when I’m in kindergarden St Ronan Jalan Pahang..with my first crush Jason namer die:P

Last made you smile: When I’ve been tagged by [sexyinred]

You last yelled at: To my cat sumi…dh besar pon nk menyusu lagi..

Today did you…

Talked to someone you like: yesJ…ami..talk on the phone je..

Kissed anyone: Do cats count?ahahaha yes sumi..its a dry kiss ok..
Get sick: yes heart sick been torn boleh tak?:P

Talk to an ex: I wish I could..but I’m not going to talk la..but going to smack the person…ahaahaha


Miss someone:Erm of course:D

Who do you really hate: exes!


Do you like your hand-writing: hate it very much..mcm budak tadika punyer handwriting

Are your toe nails painted: nope

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: nobody
What color shirt are you wearing now: red!

Are you a friendly person: I don’t know yer and tak..ahahaha

Do you have any pets: yes cats..sumi..putih…mona..noni..comot..ibu kucing..


Do you sleep with the TV on: yes..everyday

What are you doing right now: Bloggin' and watching tv
Can you handle the truth: depends wht kind of truth…if about death erm I guess I can’t handle anymore death in my live kot..cukupla 2…
Are you closer to your mother or father: nope


Do you eat healthy: yeahJ

Do you still have pictures of you and your ex: TAKDE!
If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to: sleeping and eating a lot!

Are you loud or quiet most of the time: quiet
Are you confident: sometime..depends on situation jugak…

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:

• Still in school (SPM)
• Playing netball a lot!
• Hangout with friends a lot too..

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:

Buy all lomo cameras of course ehehehehe..yang lain mcm biase lah beli rumah..bwk mak ayah sumer g haji…etc


5 of my bad habits:

• Hangat2 taik ayamJ
• Stubborn
• Quiet
• If I’m excited about something…I wont think anything else..
• 24/7 infront of my laptop(surfin internet la eventhough dh tkde ape nk surf)


5 places I’ve lived/living:
(for the past 5 years)

• Sri Iskandar
• Bangsar
• Setapak
• Tronoh
• Cheras




5 people tagged:
• sha
  
• manusia seconhand
• amadd
• king
• atun

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)

 

i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

 

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

 

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

 

- e. e. cummings ~

My heart melt everytime i read this poem...

What would you answer when somebody ask you the question of ‘what do you want?’

I will answer that ‘I want what I want’. How many of us want what we want... what we really want. Some of us or actually many of us will want what other people want us to want. I haven’t come to the question of what are we doing now. Are we doing what we want? Are we doing what other people want us to do? Is it really bad... the things what we want that we cannot do what we wanted to? Is what other people thinks good for us is really good for us to want and to do.

      Today I walked by a store and I had a glance of a shoe that I really had a crush on. Come on.. don’t tell me you had never been in this situation. Its not just a shoe, it’s a green shoe.. not very dark and not very light coloured. It’s a beautiful green coloured shoe. Feeling tempted.. I walk to the store.. to the rack and hold it for a while. I didn’t try the green shoe.. instead I tried the one next to it of the brown color of the same design cause in a blink, my mind is telling me my dark skin wont fit the green shoe. I have always had browns. A major portion of my stuffs in my closet are browns. It always fit me best. I had it on my foot.. and damn it looks good on me and it feels good to my skin. I had a smile on my lips.. I put it back on the rack, and I walk away. Of course I didn’t buy it.. its not the one that I’ve crushed on. That is a sample a minor incident that I have in my life or maybe in our life (if you ever experience of same meaning)that actually portray a major ‘me’.. a totally ‘you’ maybe. To summarize is actually I don’t wear what I want.. I wear what fits me best.

Shall I prolonged this example. A major example in my life. I had a crush with this guy. I kinda fancy him for everything him. His bad side.. his good.. whatever visible of him to me. This adoration discovered to be a two way and soon we end up having a relationship. I fancy him still during that time. But somehow we didn’t really fit each other. Wearing me, he looks bad. He even feels bad. And so they tell me. And so it really feels true; what they tell me with their words, in their looks. So I left him so that he could wear someone that looks and feels good with him. So what happens? He is the green shoe that I could have bought this evening... but I don’t.

What happens further in life?

Fairy tale: I will forget what I think that maybe looks bad on me. My heart is what matters. I will go back to the store and just buy the shoe I want. I should just try to do what I could and I actually for all this while could be the one that fits this guy. I could be the one he is comfortable to be with. And I live happily and satisfied.

Real life: I will forget what I think that maybe by wearing this green color looks bad on me. Oh for god sake just buy it! I will go back to the store and I saw this girl is trying the shoe on her foot. The brown one that I tried. And even the brown one looks crazy good on her, far better than mine in it. to compare with mine, it is probably with the much more lovely shape of foot she had, with the finer skin tone and really think the shoe should be praying for her to buy it before I did. My step halted; maybe what I did wasn’t so bad. What I left behind might be just right for the shoe or for him to be. Lets look on the bright side.. if I let them be.. I need’nt be so inferior myself. The shoe don’t speak visually that it looks good on me, it even looks much better on her. It looks better on someone else’s. The guy don’t defend me either.. sadly. Maybe I’m not worth defended. He looks much better with someone else. Fuck em! really.. what the heck.. lets go to another store and find myself a flip flop!     

If you find yourself this morning, this noon or this evening... whenever that time is. Wondering... what have you chose for yourself all this while? Has it been worthwhile or has it been what it should best be...

If you find yourself hard to answer...

I am asking you again... what would you do? Or at least.. what would you wanted to do (even if you don’t have the courage..)

what am I bluffing J

-ami's entry:)